Happy Birthday Si Kacak :)

Happy 24th Birthday to enchek Ahmad Faris!! :)
u r old now.. 24 ok!!

May u be blessed with good health, prosperity, lots of love, and most importantly blessings from Allah.. :)

Semoga ditemukan jodoh yg baekkkkkkk~ ;))

U've been the best boyfren ooppss slh, bestfren besides all my best girlfrens ever! :D

Thanx for every penny, every tears, every pieces of comforting words and acts, every fights for all these only made us a better person..
Thanx for ur presents each n every time i needed u the most.. :)
Most important thousands thanx for being sooooooooooo patient..u r the best~ :)
Have a blast dear~

je t'aime
:)

asek2 benda yg sama :P

I've said this million times..n i'm repeating it everytime

thanx for putting up with me

thanx for lending ur ears and spending ur credit for me

thanx for always there for whenever or wherever i needed u the most

thanx for being extremely patient with my mengada-ness n all the unnecessary things

n most importantly thanx for being a great person for me to treasure and love~

:)

when my hero falls~

There was once a man, who i am proud of to be father and my hero.
He was the strongest man to me..
He taught me to be strong
He taught me to be myself
He taught me how to handle things without messing things up..eventho i always messing things up.. :D
but i know he's still proud of his little princess.. :)

I'm not good in putting things into words..
but all i know my hero had fallen..
he falls in his battle..battle of life..
he's been fighting for years, keeping it to himself for years..
but in the end he falls..
but he falls with victory..
bcoz his life is Allah's will..

Maybe God don't want him to suffer more..
or even seeing his family suffer too..
so that's why He took him first..
T_T

but watever happens, i will always be as strong as u, my hero..
keeping ur wife n ur son safe as u always did..
protecting them as u could...
bcoz i know, it's them u worried the most..
bcoz u know there is u in me.. :')
as i can be as strong as u..

u was the king in my life..
n i am the princess..n will always be..
ur stubborn little girl who always wants things go on my way, who always wants to do things my way n who always makes u smile~
bcoz i am u..

*Semoga roh ayah dicucuri rahmat, ditempatkan bersama2 org yg soleh, dan diterima semua amalan.. al-fatihah~*

*i heard a news that ur eldest is praying for u non-stop every single day..i know u always wants to meet him n i wish u did.. T_T*

give n take is the best policy

erk, mcm ape je?
give n take is the best policy? bleh ke ayat cmtu..ngeheheeh

i sometimes felt like it was a mistake..
sometimes it was the best way..
sometimes like it will never gonna happen..
but yet, it keep on coming everytime i tried to run away..
either it is fated that way, or just a test..
either way pon, still complicated
:))

if it is fated the way it shud, then i will just hold on to it and make things work..
:)
mana2 pon, u know u love me the way i do~

*entry jiwang ok, kalo xsuke jgn bc :P*
*merepek plak tu haish*

I Caught Myself

currently so into this song..
aza said this sounds like me..wuwuwuuu
:(
this song is by paramore - I Caught Myself

Down to you
You're pushing and pulling me down to you
But I dont know what I
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought of you, of you

You're pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don't know what I want
No I don't know what I want

You got it, you got it
Some kind of magic
Hypnotic, hypnotic
You're leaving me breathless
I hate this, I hate this
You're not the one I believe in
With God as my witness

Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought of you, of you

You're pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don't know what I want
No I don't know what I want

Don't know what I want
But I know it's not you
Keep pushing and pulling me down
But I know in my heart it's not you

Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought of you
I knew, I know in my heart it's not you
I knew, But now I know what I want, I want, I want
Oh no, I should have never thought

membebel~

heyya..

i watched sukmum this evening..rugby final..haha
it has been more than a week already that i have a new routine.. watch rugby every evening..
haha
ni gara2 'tok wan' *oh he got new name :D* la...
n plus, my buddies also playing for 4th college..
naim,sepot,john,safuan, sape ntah lg..:D

so today was the last day for sukmum..as for rugby la kan..
12th vs 5th..
went to watch 'tok wan' maen...
too bad he lost..
but alip tibe2 dgn xbersalahnye buat muke bangga sbb 12th kalah..
huh! xmengapa la alip...
janji 'tok wan' sy lg tough dr alip.. ;P

these 2 weeks had been some very tough weeks for me..
huhuhuh
last 2 weekends - pindah umah..byk barang..byk hal nk setel.. keje byk tp xsiap..penat.. serabut...huhuhuhu
last weekends - mama kene denggi...byk hal kene setel jugak..adik cm haram xle harap.. jaga mama kt hospital since ayah keje..wuwuwuuuu :( keje xsiap gak..*sobsobsob*

beratnye dugaan semenjak 2 menjak ni..huhhu
xpela..go efie!! i know i'm strong!!!

thesis is killing me...
assignments makes me suicidal..
tests are coming..
wuwuuuu serabut~ :((

thank god my heart is ok...
nothing's been bothering me..
bgs ye kau wahai hati..
xbuat hal time2 tgh serabut ni..
ni yg tambah syg nih :D

i miss my angels...
it's been ages that we r together..
i mean all of us..huhuh
i wish we cud be like b4..
even for a day, or an hour...
i just miss having u girls around..
*sobsobsob*

n thanx to u..
for being patience listening to all my babblings..naggings..
hhuhuhuhu
i dont know who to tell lg dh...
i just miss my girls soo much..
n u jd tmpt i ngadu..
if only u cud get my girls for me rite now..
huhuhuhu
:((


with loads of works, assignments, thesis works, tests...
i always kacau u at work..huhuh
thanx for everything...wuwuwuuu



i wish u n u girls were here...
i wanna cry..
hug me plsssssssss
:(


*mode rindu*

i know~

i know this is wrong...

i know this is not right...

but i just don't care..

can i?????

crystal clear..n i made it!!!

feeling extremely relief..
wats been bothering me for these few months suda setel!
i'm proud of myself.. proud for not being a coward anymore.. proud to be able to walk away n leave behind all the black history that makes me afraid to move on and take chances..
proud for having the guts to say it n fix things..
proud of having bunch of frens who didnt even give up giving me advices and courages even when i'm not listening n just ignored wat they said..huhu
proud to hav U as my best bud n accept me for who i am n what i look like..

today, i made it..
i said it just the way wanted to say it..
i made things clear..
we made it clear..
i'm glad we talked..
no more confusion..
no more pening2..
no more afraid of anything..

thanx to U for being understanding of my situation..
thanx to U for making it clear to me..
thats all i want..nothing much..

i've been stupid..
behaving like dat..
making U behave not like u..
making U put a wall between us..
making U put a restricted limits between us..
making me almost losing U..
making U almost ran away from me...
*sigh*

thanx for coming back..
as my bestfren..
thanx for being who U were before..(so far ;P)
thanx for not running away...
thanx for helping me n making me handle this like a grown up..
:)

i always believe in fate..
only god knows wat will happen in the future..
n i accept wat ever it will be..
n i feel relief..sooo relief..
this is the 1st time i've ever win in this matter..
i win saving this frenship..
thanx a lot to U!
:)

~xoxo~